that decision.

I was debating with myself over whether i should stop when i decided that perhaps you had comprehended the letter the way i wanted you to, hence i chose to believe and behave that way.

But the real reason - not saying what i said was false, just that it wasnt the whole truth - for my decision was made due to that lady that was sitting beside you just now. On the trip back, when i looked in your direction, i saw her and her bracelet. More specifically, i saw the two crosses that were hanging from it.

I wont say i didnt want it, in a way, i did. Just that, i've things that are more important to me. Values that i've resolved to keep. I cant explain to you how or why, it's just that.

I know i've did the right thing. Now all i hope for is that you'll respect me for my decision. I want us to grow closer together spiritually.

Earlier this year, a guy said this to me: 'i'll be your diary'. I think you might be feeling the way i did then, bemused by the request, exaperated over the seemingly lack of faith in our relationship as well as reluctant to open up, be it due to a lack of mutual trust or some other reason.

I know it's crazy to ask you to pour out your life to me. I know i wont be able to take it either, just that, honestly, i want to know you more than what you may seem to be. I want to know you for who you are and who you see yourself to be.

Because i mean it when i say, i care for you.


A sin is a sin even if you don't understand why, just like how an electric current can kill you even if you don't understand electricity